I'm actually ahead in my word count for probably the first time ever. And the little stats window on the NaNoWriMo page tells me I now need 1600 words per day to finish on time instead of the traditional 1667. Very gratifying.
It was actually an extremely productive day all around. I'm always uber-productive when I'm procrastinating.
We got a ton of schoolwork done, I actually prepared good food, had a beautiful walk and visit with a friend, spent three hours at the dojang, took a trip to the grocery store with Middle on the way home, and then sat down and wrote 4 pages. Which is pretty much what I need to stay ahead.
Four pages isn't so bad. Although my back aches from sitting at the desk - or maybe it was the emphasis on falls tonight during class.
I have no fear of falling, I just hate hitting the mat.
You were warned, remember?
And while I did procrastinate, fully enjoying all the uber-productivity that happened as a result, I didn't stress over the writing itself. I just did it. Didn't worry about whether it was good or bad, whether I chose the right word here or there, whether I'd ever be able to show it to anyone... I just wrote it and enjoyed the process.
It's okay if it sucks. It's a first draft of a first novel. I have realistic expectations of it, and of myself.
If I can teach my kids to be this loving and accepting of themselves in life, they may not be fantabulous, but they'll probably be happy.
Maybe even both.